Dear Krista Marie Gunter, this basically sums it all up. whore.
Fuck your world and fuck your kind Go fuck yourself; you’re fucking barely alive I used to think of what you meant to me I think of you every fucking day Why the fuck did I let you into my heart? Now where do I begin? Today is my last fucking chance Erase it all and kill my past
Fuck what we fucking said The memories don’t mean shit Don’t give a fuck about what you’ll say The memories don’t mean shit Anymore You’re society’s whore Anymore Anymore Anymore
I’ll walk through this wasteland Before I’ll ever fucking hold your hand again I’ll burn forever before I ever fucking see your face again, in hell
Anymore And you’re society’s whore Anymore Anymore Anymore Anymore Anymore Mother fucker And that’s fucking right
Fuck you forever I’ll despise you for the rest of these days Fuck you forever I’ll fucking hate you for the rest of my life, my life Why the fuck did I let you into my heart? Now where do I begin? Today is my last fucking chance Erase it all and kill my past
Fuck what we fucking said The memories don’t mean shit Don’t give a fuck about what you’ll say The memories don’t mean shit Anymore And you’re society’s whore Anymore Revenge I seek
A lot has happened latley. me and krista are back together so that makes me feel really good about a lot of things. just knowing all be happy for the rest of my life is a good thing to feel right now. i got a shit load of new cds. and ive been i dunno. i guess a lot hasnt happened hahaha. thats probablly why i never write in this thing. uhmm GOOD NEWS! other than marriage. AS I LAY DYING, Throwdown, and All That Remains are playing @ Mr. Ques Billiards in Lancaster on the 25th and i just bought tickets for me Bill and caleb. thhat show is gunna be fuckin awesome. and if i dont meet Tim im gunna spin kick a nigger. well im out for now. ♥ Kiefer ♥
sometimes i dont even know who i am. sometimes i dont even know myself. sometimes i dont even know my own friends. sometimes i dont even know my own family. sometimes i dont even know why i do the shit i do. sometimes i dont even know why i let myself do the shit i do. why would i ever try and hurt anyone. because sometimes i dont even know myself. its wierd because people think they have me figured out. its wierd because i think i have people figured out. they dont. i dont. i dont even have my own self figured out. why was i put here on earth? what is my purpose in life? was i meant to be the bitter, sad, unknowing person i am. why do the closest of people/family keep the most deepest shit from you. because there scared to hurt you? they dont want to be judged? the truth is i havent quite figured it out yet. itll probablly trouble me for the next couple months. ill find out though. soon enough. just when you think everything is fine. curiosity takes ahold of the mind. and it fucks with you. you all know what the fuck i mean too. no im not an angry person. i am though hateful. is that possible? soon, i dont know when, but something is going to happen. why do so many people count on others for many things. why do people count on me. i tell them im listening. i tell them im here for them. some of you i am some of you im not. you know who you are. I,I however am very grateful for two friends. always will be. two people that probablly understand me the most and they probablly dont even know it. two friends whom if something happened i wouldnt know what to do. Chris. & Bill. ive only known you guys for so long but i feel as if ive known you forever. we relate to a lot of different shit. or at least i would assume so. we think a lot alike. hah. or at least i would like to think so.
im gunna close on this. like i said earlier. just when you think your happy. when you have shit figured out. when your content with life. curiosity takes a hold. i know a lot about things that people think i have no fuckin clue about. well. in time. theyll be getting a rude awakening.
what the fuck is going on? there are random thoughts going through my head right now at the moment about something. ? im scared of the truth, but what if the truth isnt really true, what if, everything is all fake, all this, these past couple weeks? what if?